There's a war in my head and Insanity's winning
Gahhhhh....My head...my head.....
This is getting harder and harder to take. I am slowly being driven insane. And I don't know how to stop it. For you see, no outside influence is causing this drift to insanity. No, my mind is going crazy because of itself.
Gah....the memories......Ever since that damned therapy, I can't get them out of my head. They just keep showing up, throwing me into violent twitching and constant headaches. And they haven't been going away. In fact, they are multiplying. The twitches are becoming more frequent, not to mention more violent.
The temporary relief of occupying myself with a task is becoming less effective....I have to continuously set my mind to a task or they immediately come back. And smaller tasks have become almost entirely uneffective. They crowd my mind, the unstoppable force, unable to be beaten back.......
I can't stand it.....and my life isn't exactly helping either. Just...things...happen....and they make me....upset.
It's beginning to affect my normal thinking as well. Just today, I accidentaly forgot something that affected someone besides me. And all I could focus on was that I was a horrible, horrible person.
Ohhhh...my head....my head.....so I'm being driven insane by myself. I need something to change, and very quickly. If I don't regain the losses I've made in my mind, I don't think I've got much chance of winning this war.